Impressions

Waking up on the other side of the world

      Before I left the states, I had a whole lot of conversations with a whole lot of people. Some were people who had known me since I was an infant. Some were complete strangers, beloved friends, and family. And the topics ranged from "Are you excited?" to "Oh... Why are you doing that?" One day, I'll probably write a book about the value scale of reactions and responses to me moving halfway around the world. 

But, I was thinking about these responses today. I thought about how some of them were very moving, encouraging, and just a blessing. Others were cynical, a little discouraging, and bland. Words. All of them were words in the end. And words amount to nothing except sounds that we put meaning behind. So, why do they effect us so much? Words can put doubt into your mind. They have the potential to make you completely change your mind about something. 

One of the cynical responses to me leaving was from a past teacher of mine. She was trying to express to me that this job I was taking was not using my college degree or getting me a cushy job or moving me towards a career ladder. I am aware of this. It kind of crossed my mind at some point before I signed 2 years away to the work. Her words were not meant to discourage me, but they did make me second-guess this whole gig as well as make me feel like I'd let someone down with my decision to leave. The purpose of it. The point of it. The worth in doing it. In the end, look where I'm at now. But goodness her words had an effect. 

While thinking about this today, I thought about priorities. My priorities are different than hers. I value following my G-d and my heart regardless of social status or salary. She values otherwise. 

Just like I have WIFI at the moment, yet have no running water!!!! The priorities are a bit different. 

I really have no hidden intentions in writing this other than the fact that it was on my mind. I suppose the moral of the story is to check your priorities and see who you're trying to please. And, know that there's always going to be at least one person who wants you to do, be, or act differently. Sometimes, you just have to see what is true and what is more important in the long run.